its finally weekend.. yet its endin too fast for me to even enjoy it.. tml's sundae.. which means tat 48hrs later, i'll be facin a killer paper for me.. cell bio! shit.. DNA stuffs still cant get into my mind.. i'm still so confused wif all e shitty stuffs..

coz of all these ICAs, din had enuf sleep thru'out e week.. each dae only had bout 4-5 hrs of slp aft an approximately 12hrs of long tirin dae in sch.. wats worse was tat i only had 2 hrs of slp on wed nite.. T.W.O hours..! ya its TWO hours! only. had to rush e freakin long chem report.. slept at 4am. had to get up at 6am for sch.. crap. so freakin tired.. somethin dreaded me even more.. slept for 2hrs tat nite, tot i could get my sweetie slp aft sch e next dae.. but there's freshie band prac.. dragged myself to band tat dae.. slept awhile while weilun was tokin.. =X felt so dead tat dae.. next nite was better.. got 3 to 4 hrs of slp.. same thing this time.. not to rush thru a report, but to rush thru prac's data sheet.. fri got band prac again.. had to play thru e graduation's performance.. really tired, bit of headache.. told hanyuan im not feelin well.. n im free frm prac tat dae.. lolx.. went to pop wif cy n pee instead.. studied some bio stuffs aft tat in e library.. cg joined us later.. n i realised tat, i cant get bio stuffs into my head while studyin in mac.. its really noisy! god~

so glad tat its weekend.. but i still feel as sleepy as ever.. todae no sectionals.. =X lolx.. tink partly my fault tats y sectionals is cancelled.. i tink only la.. coz hanyuan mentioned tat pp are tired tats y cancel.. feel quite bad sia, coz i was only bit not feelin well ytd.. abit only then purposely don go prac.. lolx.. went to tsmb todae instead.. wanted to reach there at 10am.. but couldnt wake up.. yawnx~ ha. reached there only at bout 12 plus.. tan's leavin for unity aft they played thru la storia.. bout tan's thingy, i shant say much bout it.. felt sad.. really sad.. argh, nvm forget it.. maybe some things are meant to be tat way.. i donno *shruggs* played poe wif them juz now.. hadnt been playin tat song for quite some time already.. poe juz oozed out all e memories i had back in those old daes.. exuberance 1, practices over at shuqun's side, music fest at spore conf hall.. sounded so out juz now.. my tone doesnt go well wif theirs.. yx once told me tat, 'a band w/o trumpets, or wif a weak trumpet section, will sound terrible' he added tat, for him, he prefered a resonant (or watever u spell it) tone.. tat made an impact on me.. tats y im switchin frm a drak sound to a slightly brighter sound.. practised more on projection.. but wat i played todae, wat i implied on frm wat yx taught, sounded out.. my playin totally stand out.. yucks.. 1 trumpet don go well wif majority cornets.. tsmb's so pathetic now.. no tuba no horn.. e standard's not there.. no teachniques implied onto e song.. no articulations, no dynamics, no tones.. dead.. cant compare sp band to tanglin band though.. its really to e extremes.. shocked to see tat sec1s are still strugglin wif playin e song.. its alright tat they played wrong notes, pitched wrongly.. but its a definite no-no to juz stare at e notes, waitin for e notes to play by itself instead of u producin e sound frm e instrument.. wats e pt then? i donno *shruggs again* is it enjoyable juz to stare at e note? waitin for it to smile at u? -.-" its saddenin to see.. august already.. there's still no improvements.. wanted to come back teach sectionals.. but schedule's too packed..

tml's another muggin dae for me.. aft mon, i'll be slightly free-er than usual.. so glad.. but ive got no confidence in my cell bio paper.. bio's tough w/o olvl bio background.. =(