todae marks e end of my 2004 life.. as i looked back, lots of stuffs did happen.. be it my studies, my band life, my work life..etc. in juz a yr, so many things had occurred, rangin frm happy ones to unhappy ones..

went to pj for first three mths.. in there i met lots of friends.. my og7 friends, my 04s22 friends.. in pj, i met alvin, amelia n others durin my orientation period.. met junqin, qiuping, rabia, july on e first dae of lesson.. i can still remember the first dae when i met them.. went up to 04s22 on e first dae of lesson wif a blur look. cldnt find s22 at first. then qp started askin whether im frm s22. she's forever e one who's e noisiest among us.. hehs.. then rabia had e very haven-woken-up look, july n qp click immediately on e 1st dae, when they really crap non stop.. hahs.. then jq was e one who always nv fail to bring me back frm my lalaland to e conversation our clique was havin.. n i'll nv forget louise! right? haha.. louise had been our hot topic thru out our 3mths life.. n oso anan! hahas.. met daniel, yanlin n danny oso.. same class.. can still rmb all e gossips n pp whom we dislike frm our class.. sad to say, y do good things always don last long? we, this bunch of friends, who eat together, go toilet together, crap together, pon lesson together, copy tutorials together, help out durin tests together, almost everythin oso together, got to separated aft e released of olvl results.. me n danny in sp, qp n rabia in jj, yanlin, daniel, junqin, july in pj.. well, glad to say, we still kept in contact.. 1yr of friendship... hmmm indeed fast.. wat i can say was, i've nv regretted knowin u guys.. thanx gers for all e sweet times we had together.. =D

then i went jj aft results were out.. jj orientation was fun.. better than pj.. but e tchers aint good. sch aint good either. n not to mention bout e principal.. suky. but.. my friends frm jj were great! orientation, met munshee, same og as me.. og13 rite? hahs.. din knoe she's frm fhs band until i asked her for her name. our first encounter were kinda funny.. hmmm, then met ice, filonia frm 04s30, my classmates.. though e time i spent wif them werent long, but it was fruitful though.. nv regretted meetin ice, coz she's like almost my zhi ji, someone who toks to me bout her probs, n someone i confided my probs in too.. someone who encourages me n accompanied me to run for council n oso a pal who helped me wif my hw.. esp my econs when i din take econs for e first 3mths, watsmore its under an irritatin n unreasonable econs tcher. ah neh lai de.. donno wats his name le.. lolx..

then went to sp coz of some probs wif jj principal.. in sp, met siqi, waishan, hawa, ptk, huili, sishan, michelle, lusi n chiching.. who are now my current clique of friends.. they were nice pp, lame n monsters.. hahas.. coz they're always on time for hw.. -.-" except for me, siqi, waishan n ptk la.. hahas.. then halfway thru, hawa had to quit sch coz of family financial prob.. ke lian.. then my original clique which consist of me, sq, ws n ptk, were always e ones who fall aslp durin lesson.. nv see sishan tat grp slp de.. hahas.. well, wat i wan to say was, u guys were great! *winks*

but in between e period aft i left jj, went to work.. at gul tech.. hmmm, done factory work loh.. e supervisor was nice, but we bullied her.. >_<" hehs.. coz e job was kinda tirin, fele, cy n me cannot tahan.. always find excuses to skip work.. =X but e pay was not bad.. n e agent actually paid us wrongly, givin us xtra money instead! hahs.. mine was like $500 plus xtra.. *grinns* then aft sem exams, went workin oso.. a completely new kind of job as compared to factory work.. worked under starhub, as a sales executive.. to put it crudely, its sales ger or sales promoter.. wahahas.. well, i learnt lots of stuffs frm it.. learnt how to sell things over my conscience, learnt to accept customers' attitude n face colour.. sometimes its kinda hard to sell ur products when u urself don really like it.. tats y im havin some hard time doin this job.. wats more, e pay isnt consistent.. there's daes when i got no sales for 3 consecutive daes.. n now, im only paid quite little over e sales ive done so far.. well, i learnt my lesson..

everythin's been goin on well for my family until 2mths ago when ah ma fell ill.. da chang ai.. well, she's fine now aft operation.. n her recoverin rate is pretty fast.. which is good..! hehe.. ah ma ah ma.. i pray hard for u to hav good health.. (",) n somewhere in july, whole family was struck wif chicken pox virus.. all started frm my sis.. then she pass to me, my sis n my dad.. lucky mum n ah ma got before le so quite safe.. when i got my first pox out of my skin, i nearly faint.. now, got some scars.. =( lols.. hopefully it gets better soon..

hmmmm, joined pj band durin 1st 3 mths.. n i realised it wasnt good.. not as good as sajc band when i went for their tune in.. lolx.. so only managed to went for one prac n i juz disappeared frm their sight aft tat.. =X then hopped to jj band. which is so much worse.. wat i can say was, watever's related to jj will always be bad.. bad band. bad people.. i don like jj band at all.. coz e j1s trumpeters all por seniors one.. -.-" grrr.. somemore they frm nanhua loh.. kaox.. silver band only then so act. so haolian. somemore go por e sl.. which i tink is kitmun.. watever.. then i gif excuse say i wan change section.. so hop to horn sect.. hahas.. but my left fingers were super retard.. cannot press e valves well n fast.. wahahas.. me n munshee were like stuck in horn section.. munshee wans back sax section but due to some reasons which i forgot le, so went to horn wif me.. hahs.. ok la, shant say much bout jj band.. gif goi khia face.. hmmm, then i sort of pangseh munshee go sp le.. =X she still in jj band, whereas me now in spband le.. n of all e bands i went, i love spband most le.. suzhen joined spband too.. met lots of friends in band.. n really not to deny, band friends were always e fun ones.. e nice ones.. really lame, really funny.. lols.. seniors were nice oso.. very take care of juniors.. n i love trumpet section most le worx.. met doreen, shirley n suzhen.. then yr2 got hanyuan n lincoln.. yr got jiahui (sl), yuanru n shawn.. alumnis got ayub, zhizi etc.. all nice nice pp.. yuanru very entertainin.. jiahui forever pickin on yuanru.. very funny when they argue here argue there.. hahas.. lucky i chose spband as my cca.. if not, i'd hav missed out all e funs.. all e funs durin ibm camp, ibm, grad ceremony, fanfare performances.. *grinns* most impt, i actually found pp to go toilet wif me everytime aft eatin.. hahs.. there's joelly n suzhen who always will go da bian.. *thumbs up* lols!

yeah, band taught me lots of stuffs.. n my 2nd home used to be tsmb.. a place where i find e potential in me, where i learn bout life, where i met my friends, where i went thru ups n downs wif my section, wif my seniors n my 3 best buddies (fele, meiyue n cy), where i open up my world to socialise better, where i built my confidence in n where i find a drivin force in my life.. well, i find it kinda an irony tat certain pp will often take alumnis who came back often for granted, whereas pinnin on hope tat others who din come back often will come back one dae.. maybe to them, they looked upon more on those pp than those who come back often.. well, i shant elaborate on things which i knoe will only incurred onto more unhappiness.. i donno wat went wrong, but frm all these incidents, i learnt to view things in another perspective.. i learnt e feelin of bein taken for granted.. i learnt bout gratitude frm e way someone did n said which really hurts me alot.. n i learnt bout e ugly side of someone whom i used to respect alot.. however, speakin frm e bottom of my heart, tsmb will always hav a place in my heart.. coz tats where i grew up..

lastly, its deardear's turn.. knew him for like 1yr plus plus le.. he's someone who had given me days of joy, days of disappointment, days of unhappiness n days of bitterness.. someone who made me realised wats love been all about.. someone who can really do nth but juz brightens up my dae.. these few wks nv meet le.. someone busy wif work.. but im still missin him.. in my eyes, he'll always remain as someone special in my heart.. why? coz i still love him as much as i used to..



well, guess i shld have accounted all e stuffs tat happened in my 2004 life.. n i've grown up frm all e incidents tat happened.. took it as a lesson for me.. learnt to take things in my stride, learnt to view things frm different perspective.. i learnt to cherish more of my family.. n todae, i juz learnt e importance of gratitude.. i don anticipate any stuffs, nor do i hope for anythin anymore.. coz i knoe end of e dae it'll only bring upon disappointment.. my disappointment rate had increased tremendously this yr.. but well, a brand new yr, a brand new start.. im not bringin all these uphappiness wif me to welcome 2005.. but rather, i only wish for things to go smoothly for me now.. n everyone's well wif their health.. pp, happy new yr!!



my 2005 wish :

to live better than 2004.. not to be so foolish as before to hurt myself le..



e last sentence i wan to say before 2005 comes :

deardear, last yr ur new yr wish was this.. now my turn to say first le.. may our relationship go as smoothly as this yr ok? despite any ups or downs, u'll always hav me by ur side.. i love u~ *winks*