how i wish i cld hav lost my memory on some sad stuffs oso.. at least im sure i will live better n happier than now.. no worries to probe on.. too many things hav occurred recently.. i cant find e laufter within me.. i don feel e same as last time.. im juz like a dead person, followin e fixed n tight schedule planned out for me.. plus incidents happenin all at e same time.. i don like this at all.. i feel so helpless.. i feel i need a confidante to share my burden wif.. but, oh well.. it takes 2 hands to clap.. but i felt tat ive got one hand tats handicapped.. e other hand felt tired of always puttin in effort whereas e handicapped hand doesnt put in any effort.. argh, i gettin more n more out of point.. i juz wan to say i miss e good old days.. im off to slp.. cryin in my heart though.. haix..