i knoe i still haven gotten over it.. but im glad i still hav pp ard me who still cares bout me.. juz wan thank pp lik samantha n suzhen n others.. though wat they said werent long naggy stuffs but short n consolin, i felt really touched.. especially at this moment.. n of coz not forgettin cy esp who's been there for me when im always down [though she say she's juz only returnin favor -.-" watever.. bleahs..] juz got an advice frm samantha.. she said one thing tat she learnt was to let go n to spend more time wif pp who needs her more.. i tink once, i tot twice.. e prob wif me is tat i still haven learnt to let go.. but i'll try to i guess.. wat sam said, "it takes time, things are not to drag.. sometimes u juz need a little push to move on. don look back coz e past are memories.. there's always greater things ahead in ur life.. be strong girl. i knoe u can do it. love u! -huggles-" this was wat she said.. n wat made me cry again.. somewat how im feelin now is really undescribable.. cy told me not to cry.. aftall its part of my decision oso.. i guess i got to pull myself together n be strong.. to find back e laufter n craziness e old zhihui used to hav.. thanx guys for e comforts n consoles..