ahh shyt. i felt a sudden tinge of pain at the back of my head. wats happening to me? everytime having on and off headaches. only god knows. shruggs.

i've yet again set myself upon reflecting back. somehow i realised i've drifted apart frm my old friends. frm my childhood mates to my sec sch mates. time have changed. everyone has got their own responsibilties, their own commitment. over the time, some pp came, some pp left. i looked at the ones tat stayed in my life. n i certainly missed the ones that had left. i wonder how my dear old mates were doing. preparing for alvls? preparing for poly exams?

memories were all tat i had left with me about them. some still stayed in contact wif me, some dont. truely, i treasure all my friends, but do they treasure me?

hadnt been hearing much bout jielin. hadnt been hearing much bout meiyue n fele. hadnt been hearing much bout my jc friends. hadnt been hearing much bout my some other friends. hopefully they are all doin fine. once a while, a msg frm u guys certainly brightens up my day.

suddenly i felt so alone.

i missed the great old times.

i missed the times when all of us used to be so naive, so ignorant.

sometimes, ignorance is a bliss. as quoted frm lao ban. the used-to-be-so-carefree me was gone. had read rouxin's blog. it hits a nerve in me.

Growing older is scary
With age comes a certain responsibility too
I can't be the same wild child anymore
The ignorance will never be tolerated.

Sometimes i felt so tired with the life im leading now. present friends had asked me before, " u got sense of humor meh? " pp who knew me way before i entered poly know the ans better. i realised i've toned down tremendously alot. or maybe, as times passed, ive gradually changed. i don act the way i used to be. i don do the usual stupid stuffs and actions i used to. i seldom crack jokes which i used to alot. i don lauf at wat some of my classmates were laufing. i felt like... these were wat i had used to lauf at. it isnt hilarious to me at all now. or maybe i juz don clique well enuf wif my classmates except for some though.

but, im certainly glad tat i still have my band mates. wherever i go, i felt like band friends are always the ones tat i clique well the most. the frequencies will always be the same. i laufed with them, i played wif them, i worked wif them. really, it makes me felt like im back to the old band days.

to my dear friends, be it those who are still in my life, had left or are planning to leave, if ever u guys are reading.. i juz want to say i miss u all alot. im so glad ive been blessed with knowing every single one of u. i don ask for more, but only to request u guys to keep me in ur heart as a friend..

=)