decisions and choices. all of us were bound to hav faced difficulties upon these 2 words. i certainly hated making tough deciions or choices, esp when it involved emotions. shruggs. juz this word - decision, is enuf to haunt me.

over the mths i met wif lots of pp. sought different advices frm them n i learnt out of it. of which few of their advices really caused a tremendous impact on me. struck me on my head n woke me up back to reality. jannah's words i still rmb clearly. she was the one who brought me back to reality. cheng's comments made me became back to who i were used to be. last wk, i actually had a heart-to-heart tok wif anna, the temp staff in heart centre. can say tat she was the oldest person who gave me guidance among all whom i had sought help frm other than mr wong. she's 23 yrs old this yr. her words i felt tat were more than enuf to stabilise my decision.

of coz there were few whose words shook me too. ytd on mr wong's car, he said quite abit. n really, he did made my decision shaky. i mean.. shruggs nvm i donno. i know cheng once said she hated pp who regrets aft making a decision. juz like when i told her i regretted quitting jc tat time to join poly, she sort of bu shuang me for being regretful.

well, tats me ba. virgos are a bunch of creatures who are indecisive coz they wan to make a perfect decision n yet they are afraid they would make mistakes out of it. perfectionist, tat is it. y make themselves so stressed up over the word - perfect? i donno. u got to ask the creator of the horoscopes. i too hated myself for wanting everything to be perfect. n when things arent getting the way i wan it to be (perfect), i would be upset.

so well, i guess life still goes on right? hopefully watever decisions i made or hav made, wont giv me misery at the end of the day. giving up is not an easy task to do. god, if u heard me.. pls bless me wif my decision. i don wan to be someone who had their unhappiness hidden behind those smiles. i juz wan to move on wif my life n be a cheery ger again.